Some are loved more and given more graces. One cannot pretend to be or even want to be the Blessed Mother, or St. John the Evangelist, or St. Padre Pio.
What we are called to do is to allow God to love us as He so desires. One cannot compare one's life or circumstances with anyone, saint or not.
Comparisons drive people into envy and hatred, including self-hated. To compare one's self with another or others is a sin of pride. To accept the small crumb from the Master's table of love is for what I am grateful.
Omnibenevolence watches over us daily. I shall end this section with a quotation from St. Therese.
“WHEN ONE LOVES, ONE DOES NOT CALCULATE.”