In this mini-series, I have moved from thoughts of suffering and death, to the process of dying and now, to the particular judgment.
Many people have no just fear of God. They look on Jesus only as a friend and not as a judge. They do not understand the Scriptures that the Second Person of the Blessed Trinity will come gain to judge the living and the dead.
We will be in one or the other category.
But, before that General Judgment is our Particular Judgment, a long-standing teaching of the Catholic Church. As I have noted, some people I have talked with in Europe have told me they have already experienced their particular judgment. One person I know in America has told me she has as well.
In their experience of this particular judgment, they have seen all the sins of their past life and all the people they have hurt though sin. One may told me he sobbed for three days and repented, asking God for purification.
Ask for this grace now, rather than later, in order to be made into a saint, now.
Here is St. Alphonsus on the particular judgment. 1. It is appointed unto men once to die, and after this the judgment.1 It is of faith, that immediately after death we shall be judged according to our works in this life. And it is also of faith, that upon this judgment will de- pend our eternal salvation or perdition. Imagine your- self to be in your agony, and to have only a short time to live. Think that in a short time you would then have to appear before Jesus Christ to give an account of your whole life. Alas! how alarming would the sight of your sins then be to you! Jesus, my Redeemer! pardon me, I beseech You, be- fore You judge me. I know that I have many times 1 "Statutum est hominibus semel mori; post hoc autem, judicium." Heb. 9. 27.  already deserved to be sentenced to eternal death. No, I desire not to present myself guilty before You, but penitent and pardoned. O my sovereign good! I am grievously sorry for having offended You, 2. O God! what will be the anguish of the soul when it shall first behold Jesus Christ as its judge, and behold him terrible in his wrath? It will then see how much he has suffered for its sake; it will see what great mercies he has exercised towards it, and what powerful means he has bestowed upon it for the attainment of salvation; then will it also see the greatness of eternal goods, and the vileness of earthly pleasures, which have wrought its ruin; it will then see all these things, but to no purpose, because then there will be no more time to correct its past errors; what shall have then been done will be irrevocable. Before the judgment seat of God, no nobility, nor dignity, nor riches will be considered; our works alone will be weighed there. Grant, O Jesus! that when I first behold You I may see You appeased; and, for this end, grant me the grace to weep, during the remainder of my life, over the evil which I have done in turning my back upon You, to follow my own sinful caprices. No, I desire never more to offend You. I love You and desire to love You forever.
3. What contentment will that Christian enjoy at the hour of death who has left the world to give himself to God; who has denied his senses all unlawful gratifica- tions: and who, if he has on some occasions been negligent, has at last been wise enough afterwards to do worthy penance for it! On the other hand, what anguish will that Christian experience who has continually relapsed into the same vices, and at last finds himself at the point of death! Then will he exclaim: "Alas! in a few moments I must appear before Jesus as my judge, and I have not as yet even begun to change my life! I have many times  promised to do so, but I have not done it; and now, in a short time, what will become of me?" Ah, my Jesus and my judge! I give You thanks for the patience with which You have until now waited for me. How many times have I myself written my own eternal condemnation . Since You have thus waited to pardon me, reject me not, now prostrate at Your feet. Receive me into Your favor through the merits of Your bitter Passion. I am sorry, my sovereign good! for hav- ing despised You. I love You above all things. I de- sire never more to forsake You. O Mary! recommend me to Your Son Jesus, and do not abandon me. To be continued....